Turkey Days

So, it was kind of a rough time this weekend. Aside from all of the food at Thanksgiving dinners, we spent a great deal of time with the extended family. It was really nice, but it got me to thinking a lot about my future and how it'll affect them all. The problem I have is that no one wants to talk to me about my transition. They may talk to Bubbles a little bit to express their concerns, and I imagine that they have an occasional discussion between themselves, but no one wants to come to the source, even though I've made it very clear that I am willing to speak to them very openly and honestly about it.

Looking at it from their perspective, I can understand why. As I've said, it is a very uncomfortable topic, but my fear is that misinformation will lead them down mental paths that they need not go, making assumptions based on the worlds view or their own experiences rather than the facts that I would love to share with them.

Hopefully some day they will open up. Maybe when Caitlyn becomes more of an everyday presence and they are forced to see me for who I am rather than the person they've known for so long. My fear is that by that time, I will be so far in my transition and they will know so little about it, that they will just avoid me altogether.

Well, when I made the decision to transition, I accepted the fact that a lot of people would likely drop out of my life. It just goes back to what I said about unconditional love...can they accept the real me, or do they need to hang on their old idea of me because changing that is too scary for them?

We'll see...